I don't know what to feel right now.
I never liked being in this situation, the kind where you just cried for you Uncle's burial ceremony and his wife suddenly dies as well leaving their 4 all grown-up sons and daughter and you don't know how to cry some more. But again, who would want to be in this situation?
It's like sadness week all over again. Only this time, the letting go would be easier. I can't imagine losing BOTH my parents in a week of time. I would go crazy like drink absinth or cases of beer and do drugs if I were to lose them. I wans't that close to my Uncle and Aunt. But i really cried hard when we buried Uncle Emong. I think it was the massive amount of sympathy that i felt for sons and daughter he abandoned, and the bitter understanding: what if i were in their shoes right now? i would want my relatives to be right at my back, ready to hold me up. How can you heal a heart with two scratches? I juts feel for them even though i haven't experienced it yet.
How can you be happy in the midst of 2 deaths in a row. this is so stupid. i don't understand. really... then i read this quote ad it made me smile:
"It is the will of God and Nature that these mortal bodies be laid aside, when the soul is to enter into real life; 'tis rather an embrio state, a preparation for living; a man is not completely born until he be dead: Why then should we grieve that a new child is born among the immortals?"
Benjamin Franklin, 22 February 1756
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